Money is, by far, the thing I am most insecure about. I worry each month about getting the bills paid on time. Once that is done, I worry that we are spending too much on gas and groceries. Who isn't these days? My biggest dream in life is to have enough money to pay the bills comfortably, have enough in savings to not worry about the cars breaking down or one of us getting hurt (life with no health insurance can be scary), and have a bit left over to have fun.
Every time we go out to do something entertaining, I get worried we shouldn't be spending that money. I am concerned that we should be focusing on building a better savings account or that I should have used that money to pay down some of the credit card debt. At the same time, life is about LIVING. If we wait until the perfect time to go play mini-golf, for example, we may never get the chance to teach our children the game. Before we know it, we may be financially secure, but we would be robbed of precious memories.
I am hoping that when I get a job for next school year I will feel comfortable. Part of my insecurity with money comes from the fact that as a stay-at-home mom I didn't contribute to the family finances. My husband has provided well, and we've had what we needed. We've turned a corner, though, and the children don't need me at home so much. Now is a great time to start building that savings. Before I know it we'll be stressing about how to pay for Andrea to start college. See, the struggle with money just never seems to end!