Since my blog is for my readers, but also for myself, I need to take this quick moment to vent. Things are NOT as stable as I believed them to be over the weekend. This week has been hell, with ups and downs that are so classic it's like I could have written a script. This is WAY too much to deal with sometimes. I am so overwhelmed I can't think straight. Yet, I have to go on and continue in life just like I always have. HOW am I really supposed to be expected to go to work, keep the house up, interact with my own children, AND worry about my husband, our marriage, and our futures? At some point something has got to give. I'm dropping balls everywhere I turn. I HATE bipolar disorder and the inconsistency of life that goes with it!
Daniel is going in for an appointment this afternoon to let the doctor know that he is nowhere near stable (like the doctor thought on Saturday based on one week of stability) and see if they can make a medication adjustment today. While that is happening, at the exact same time, I will be having my formal observation at class by my boss. Gotta love this timing!