Since my blog is for my readers, but also for myself, I need to take this quick moment to vent. Things are NOT as stable as I believed them to be over the weekend. This week has been hell, with ups and downs that are so classic it's like I could have written a script. This is WAY too much to deal with sometimes. I am so overwhelmed I can't think straight. Yet, I have to go on and continue in life just like I always have. HOW am I really supposed to be expected to go to work, keep the house up, interact with my own children, AND worry about my husband, our marriage, and our futures? At some point something has got to give. I'm dropping balls everywhere I turn. I HATE bipolar disorder and the inconsistency of life that goes with it!
Daniel is going in for an appointment this afternoon to let the doctor know that he is nowhere near stable (like the doctor thought on Saturday based on one week of stability) and see if they can make a medication adjustment today. While that is happening, at the exact same time, I will be having my formal observation at class by my boss. Gotta love this timing!
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Praying for you!
I wish I could just give you a big hug right about now. Stay strong!
Oh no. Hope all goes well at work today and that you'll be able to get Daniel's meds adjusted to work better. Keep your chin up. Hugs!!!
Fi, thank you. I'm trying my hardest to stay strong. Today was a better day.
Susi, thank you. Today, Friday, was a half day at school so it was quick and easy. It's been a better day at home, too. This is definitely a roller coaster ride!
I'm so sorry you are going through such a rough time right now, Karen. It is really hard when pressures on us get worse just as we are needing to be at our best. I went through this a lot recently, starting a new job while going through a separation and move at the same time.
Honestly, a lot of people are going through similar things right now. There is a weird cosmic energy in the year 2012. It is the year of upheaval and renewal. It has to happen but remember, it will be ok. We have to walk through the fire to get out of it.
Trust. Trust. Trust. It will all OK. One way or another....
Thinking of you!
Karen....take five minutes...sit down by yourself and be....hope the weekend was beter
Hugs Karen...hope things are sorting themselves out. Surely you're doing the best you can; as long as the framework of your life is intact, just let the rest be. Here's wishing you better days...
Anne, you are so right. The framework is there. The details will work themselves out. Great perspective!
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