To blog? Or not to blog?
Have you ever thought about ending your blog? What made you change your mind?
I can't tell you the number of times I've thought about closing down my blog. As some of you know, I actually did delete my blog for about 12 hours one time because a crazy stalker just wouldn't stop picking on me. I realized then, though, that my blog has become an important part of my life. I couldn't just throw it away and never look back. I missed my blogger friends, even in that short time.
Since then there have been long periods of time when I just don't have much to say, my thoughts are buried too far inside of myself to bring them to the surface, or I've just been too busy to sit down and type. At those moments I wonder if I should just close up shop. Then I remember that it is when we are the most busy that we need to take time for ourselves. Writing can help bring emotions to the surface. I DO have something to say; I'm just not in the mood to argue my points in public. Whatever the case, it reminds me that if I shut down my blog I wouldn't have anywhere to go when I WAS ready to share.
I am far behind in posting pictures and sharing stories. I didn't get pictures of my daughters at Halloween up here, and Amber has now participated in TWO karate tournaments that I haven't gotten on my blog. It's not because I'm not proud of my girls. That's definitely not true. It's because I'm focused on LIVING with the girls and gathering more memories. There's only so much of life that can be preserved.
So for now, I will continue with my little blog here. I appreciate everyone who reads regularly. I apologize that I don't write now as much as I did when I was sick and sitting on the couch for four months. I take that as a good thing, though. To be honest, I hope to NEVER have that much time to write again!