I've been preparing to bring you a post titled "A Year Ago Today" to recap my struggle with shingles, nerve damage, and share how far I've come. I realize, each time I start to write, that although I desperately need to look at those days, I really don't want to. I need to, though, because I need to prove to myself that life DID get better. I am not stuck in a rut, though I still cry on pretty much a daily basis because of the things I can't do. Above all, though, I need to look at those posts to show myself that I am as strong as people give me credit for.
Since that initial post, and the ones that follow it, are going to be hard, I decided to bring you some fun ones looking back as well. I've come to realize that in many ways I am grieving, and that is okay. It is perfectly normal to be sad when a goal is out of reach- at least for the moment. I'll get where I want to be again one day. It's just going to take A LOT longer to get there than I had hoped.
A year ago today I posted Day 10 in a 30 Day Photo Challenge: The person I do the most things with. This is one of my favorite posts because it shows a time I was so positive and excited about life. I was looking forward to all the new experiences that would be coming my way. Fortunately I've been able to take part in many of the events I thought for awhile I would miss out on. For that I should be, and am, grateful.
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and haven't you come a long way in 12 months.
I think I've been popping in here for almost that long now. Time flies huh?
I have come a long way, Fi, but in many ways it's not far enough for me. Grrr...
Time sure does fly. I keep saying that when you write about your grandson.
I think, we are our own worst enemies when it comes to this stuff. If you look back at your journey through clinical eyes you will see the strides you have made. But looking at it from your perspective all you see is what you cannot do yet. It's tough. But I think, you are doing great and should give yourself a break and take each day as it comes!!! Chin up and smile!!! :) You are doing great.
Thanks Susi. I would probably say the exact same thing to someone else. You are right that we often can't see our own accomplishments for what they are.
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